Oh, wow! How this song speaks to me right now. "I'm running, I'm running, I'm running to the mercy seat. Where Jesus is calling. His grace will be a covering. His blood will flow freely. It will provide my healing. I'm running to the mercy seat. You said I could come into your presence with out fear. Into the Holy Place where your mercy hovers near"!!! I love how people are flocking to the alter in this video. It reminds me of the times I've gone running to the mercy seat like that. It doesn't matter if I'm running to the mercy seat because of my own sins or because of the sins committed against me. It's still the same healing power that meets me.
I for a long time felt like what had happened to me was somehow a sin that I had committed because of the burden of shame that I felt. I noticed that for as long as I felt the shame I also carried around a sense of condemnation of a sin I did not commit as though it were my sin. As though I just couldn't repent of it enough. Time and again I would run to the mercy seat as though I was looking for forgiveness when it was healing that I needed. Each time I brought my brokenness before the Lord, He would provide my healing bit by bit. Piece by piece God would reveal to me the healing that needed to take place, and God would prepare me for it. While I have come such a long way from where I once was; I'm still healing, and God is still preparing me for my healing that is yet to come, but I know that I know that I know...it's on it's way!!
I would just like to encourage anyone who feels the burden of shame. Especially for the shame of a sin they did not commit but was committed against them. To run to the mercy seat; take your brokenness to God, and watch Him provide the healing. Every time I felt like I was at my lowest; I would go before God. I would be totally honest with God about my brokenness, and God never failed to provide my healing. No, it wasn't always easy. In fact most of the time it was a battle won by not giving up no matter how hard I had to fight to hold onto the promise of my healing. I know God has promised me my healing, and at times that's all I had to hold onto. The promise is enough to get me through to the other side because I know that with that promise comes All of God's resources...all of His power and authority. Because of my promise I could step out, even if I was being carried by Jesus, into what I felt I needed to do to walk into my healing. Only with God as my strength could I face the horrors of my past, and walk away healed.
I'm running, I'm running, I'm running to the mercy seat. Where Jesus is calling. His grace will be a covering. His blood will flow freely. It will provide my healing. I'M RUNNING TO THE MERCY SEAT!!
